You have ADHD, therefore either myself or a therapist is going to attach a speculative narrative to you that must be accurate.
Here's what it is:
You must feel bad about yourself because you have ADHD. You behave this way because you don't express your feelings like an adult woman, but once you do, your behavior should improve.
You will need to go to see a therapist, who (regardless of their gender) has never learned how to make therapy welcoming to you, or how to effectively work with you in a way that's congruent with male brain development. You will be expected to come to an office that feels unwelcoming to you. You'll be asked questions where you're expected to access emotional language on-demand (despite the fact that's not congruent with how most boys' brains work), and access your non-verbal working memory (future thinking skills) to utilize the "coping skills" the therapist teaches you. (Even though that's incongruent with your "executive function age", as well as how people with ADHD most effectively generalize skills).
When that doesn't happen as we expect, we'll create more speculative narratives about you: "𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘥𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘢𝘭", "𝘏𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘴𝘯'𝘵 𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘶𝘱 𝘺𝘦𝘵","𝘏𝘦'𝘴 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘯 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘬 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴." etc.
🤔Any questions as to why males drop out of therapy at a much higher rate than females?
🤔Any questions as to why the American Academy of Pediatrics does not recommend individual therapy for kids as part of ADHD treatment?